I'm a female-born and identified partner, wife, girlfriend, squeeze, lover—you name it—of a Transman (FTM). After spending his life stuck in the wrong body, he's transitioning to become the man he has always been. This is our journey from my point of view. Right now it's anonymous so if you know us, please respect that. But we both really appreciate comments.
This is a note you'll see recurring here. But the thing I want to know is when will it happen. When will R start feeling things? You know. Testosterone-related things. When we went for our first injection, two weeks ago (feels like a lot longer), the nurse, when I asked specifically what changes will I notice, said in a charmingly thick accent, "He will get horny." She said it shyly, knowing that the term "horny" was far superior to its more clinical cousin, "aroused"and yet, somehow a strangely juvenile word to use. Horny is just a word I put away, for the most part, at adolescence. It's not that I don't get horny. In fact, one of the side effects of gender dysphoria for R has been his disconnection with sex. So he's already more libidinous. So that's great. But he's still the old person I fell in love with. I've been reading other blogs that talk about some of the changes that they didn't prepare for—body smell, hair—you know, stuff that biologically makes a man a man. Will I be OK with it? I'm trying to remain open to all of it. Yes, I love R for who he is, but attraction is also important. So I'm trying to stay true to both of us. frankly, I'm excited by the changes to come.