For most of my adult life, I've been identified as a lesbian. I choose these words intentionally because I personally have never felt comfortable with labels. Mind you, I don't have anything against labels, per se. But none seemed to fit me well. While all of my relationships have been with women, I have had dalliances with men—and enjoyed them. So does that make me bisexual? I always thought so. But this issue has forced me to really explore my sexuality. It's way more complicated than I can get into in a post. But the weird thing will be when R starts passing. Will that make me straight? It probably will in the eyes of the world. And I think I'll be OK with that. But who really knows? I've grappled with identity my whole life and at my age (let's say I'm well past my 30s) I frankly don't really care anymore. At least not today.
It's just being pansexual.
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