Friday, December 7, 2012
We had our friend film it. I felt like i needed something to memorialize it. We talked about the fact that we didn't film the first injection. But now i'm convinced tht having a camera there would have changed it. It was really special though. The nurse was wonderful, a trans woman. When I realized she was trans, I immediately felt comfortable. No judgements and who better to understand what it is like to be trapped inside the wrong body? She told me to tell R how much I loved him and that with the medicine I was helping him to become the man he's always known he'd be.
Empowering. strangely. I kissed him and it felt right. Like I was part of it and sending him on a journey that we both were taking together.
Today was more difficult. The needle hurt him and i felt terrible causing him pain. he was brave though. I had gotten cocky about how great I am at giving shots. but I think I need to practice more.